I Loved You More

I Loved You More

A Novel

eBook - 2013
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Tom Spanbauer's first novel in seven years is a love story triangle akin to The Marriage Plot and Freedom , only with a gay main character who charms gays and straights alike. I Loved You More is a rich, expansive tale of love, sex, and heartbreak, covering twenty-five years in the life of a striving, emotionally wounded writer. In New York, Ben forms a bond of love with his macho friend and foil, Hank. Years later in Portland, a now ill Ben falls for Ruth, who provides the care and devotion he needs, though they cannot find true happiness together. Then Hank reappears and meets Ruth, and real trouble starts. Set against a world of struggling artists, the underground sex scene of New York in the 1980s, the drab, confining Idaho of Ben's youth, and many places in between, I Loved You More is the author's most complex and wise novel to date.
Publisher: Portland, Oregon : Hawthorne Books & Literary Arts, 2013
Copyright Date: ©2013
ISBN: 9780989360425
Characteristics: 1 online resource (467 pages)

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Dec 24, 2018

Tom Spanbauer may be more famous for the writers to come out of his Dangerous Writing class than for his own work. They include Chuck Palahniuk, Monica Drake, and Cheryl Strayed. "I Loved You More" was recently on a best books of the 21st century (so far) and may be his definitive work, exploring sex, AIDS, identity, New York in the 80s, writing, love, and much more. Running over 450 pages, it went a little long for my taste and could've used some trimming, but then it might lose some of the rawness that defines it. The title comes from Auden.

Jun 02, 2016

Absolutely fascinating, with characters that will stay with me forever.
I had problems caring at a certain point, (about 2/3 of the way through) and wanted to read ahead to make things move along, but I was glad I stuck with it.
Marvellously real portrait of gay love.

Sep 04, 2015

Ben Grunewald, the main character, had aspects of many friends, past and present, as well as myself. Light, heavy, dark, sorrowful, messy, heartbreaking......just like real life!

Jul 04, 2015

Wow franque your words paint a portrait well exceeding your 3.5 star review! Generally unwholesome elderly sex predator protags are described on the cover copy as literary and I have no doubt the grammatical errors were ironic. I am putting this on my completed shelf. Five stars.

Jul 03, 2015

Definitely 3 1/2 stars because the stories within the story were poignant & entertaining but the grammar errors & would be crescendo of the flat ending made the book as a whole feel a bit deflated. The main character was very self centered & to a degree seemed like an older man who was always preying on younger people to give him what he wanted i.e. love, sex, spiritual experience, affection, medical care. In this way the protagonist Ben was annoying, yet every time I judged his weakness I found myself considering my own shortcomings that are/were similar, thusly I began to understand & empathize with him more. Though this book is rather anti Catholic & pro new ageism, even as a Christian I found myself hoping he would "find himself" rather than rely on his own selfish mind & the adorations of the people that surrounded him. Worth a read but beware of those typos which really sully any book, but especially books like this where emotional exploration deserves fully developed literary excellence.

Sep 16, 2014

though perhaps a little too-detailed, a poignant, brave look at love unrequited, love changing...


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